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Undefined: A Narrative on the Margins (ART/LIT #5)

5/10/2017

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To be undefined in a binary is a terrifying thing. To be undefined in a predominantly black-and-white binary is even more terrifying, as terrifying as it is tragic. As an Asian American living in a community where Chinese-Americans are the majority, I’ve had the privilege of having my race spotlighted, especially in the narrative of politics. Here in Northern California, we have leading political personality Evan Low representing the 28th district. We have Kansen Chu, a first-generation immigrant from Taiwan, as assembly member of the 25th district. And when Kamala Harris, first Indian-American to serve in the United States, was elected, we all cheered. Here was a day in history where our race was being featured. Here was the day that our stories would start being told in not just the realm of public policy, but also in the way we lived our everyday lives. For those living on the margins, representation is a powerful, tangible, object--it changes the way we feel not just about the world, but also ourselves.
I grew up knowing the story of my race, but never really seeing it represented in the majority narrative. In my United States History textbook, the section on Chinese railroad workers barely covered half a page, as if it was only a feature, a by the way, this happened--but it’s not relevant. It’s incredibly disheartening to realize that Americans still don’t value Asian-Americans as part of the broader story. We talk about the American Dream: Manifest Destiny, the Gold Rush, the pursuit of opportunity, but we never truly acknowledge and appreciate the significance of minorities who have had to work just as much to achieve what they have today. Immigrants are represented as statistics and “waves of newcomers in the 1800s,” when their individuality and personal stories have just as much importance to the narrative.

Oppression doesn’t have to be explicit. It’s a universal language, one that translates itself in many different ways. When I transferred to a high school in which I was an ethnic minority, I began to realize just how much oppression was still present. It came in the form of English teachers telling me that my vocabulary was too advanced for a “person like me,” and that I needed to cut down my sentences to less than what they were.  Superfluous became more. Acknowledgement became realize. Deceit of oneself became lies. So many lies. I tried to take an art class in my sophomore year, was gazed upon with a dubious look. “People like you should stick to the technical fields,” the teacher told me condescendingly. I wanted to prove myself so badly; my words were all I had, but no one seemed to appreciate them. “Those aren’t your words,” others told me. They were. I knew there was something wrong here, said so. Oh, she’s just a teenager, finding a problem to complain about. Each day when I came home, I would begin crying, knowing that my voice was being silenced, that I was becoming less and less of myself and more of what Americans seemed to want me to be.

I had always called myself an advocate for the Asian-American narrative, but it weighed upon me: how could I be advocating for a broader community of people when I couldn’t even stand up for my own race? I began seeing the inequalities, the limited solution sets Asian-Americans were placed in. We could never transcend our range. We were confined within the domain of race, and it seemed impossible for us to ever break out of it. It was an absolute value. We were undefined in a world where the Asian-American story was invisible.

In my initial years of math, I had trouble defining numbers. Everything had a numerical value, but some were rational, and some were irrational. But some, the ones in a different category altogether, were imaginary. They were no longer real.

When I began to acknowledge my identity as someone who needed a hyphen for one identity, I started to think that maybe I was an imaginary number. I was zero, the absence of something. I was always trying to define myself within a limited solution set. René Descartes, French philosopher and mathematician, once stated, “I think, therefore I am.” In that sense, I was trying to associate myself within the inequalities of life. I ran for student council in ninth grade, and lost to girls whose ancestors had been here since colonial times, who brought to school real artifacts of the Civil War because for them, it was easy. It was their history.  I began to regret my decision to leave my community of yellow, to pursue an American education that didn’t value me as much as I valued it. At least in my community, I had opportunity. At least in my community, I had a dream, one where I could represent a quantity greater than myself. But I couldn’t measure my skin color, not quantitatively.

Math isn’t my strong suit, but I do know this: equality matters. Representation and resistance matter. In a land of color, I want to be able to look across the continent, from sea to shining sea, and see a country that values not just one ethnicity, but diversity. I want to be able to flip through a United States History textbook and see the multi-faceted Asian-Americans that have made up so much of history. I want to look at them, smile, say these are my people. These are my people. Living on the edge of the margins can be difficult. No, I can’t claim that my basic rights have been violated.et, I can’t say that I’ve been truly liberated either. I am still a human being that is subject to the many stereotypes that have perpetuated throughout history. The variable is still left unsolved. I’m a writer of color who’s still being forced to write about kung pao chicken and jade dragons in Beijing. That isn’t my history; I’m not a metaphor. What I represent is just one of many individual stories of the Asian-American experience, one that needs to be told.

 Political representation for Asian-Americans matters today specifically because of its potential to effect change. No, I was never elected for Student Council. But today, I continue to support the endeavors of Asian-Americans who do, knowing the trials they have overcome just to be standing on a stage and telling us why they matter. Because they do, and as voters in a story greater than ourselves, it’s our duty to acknowledge those stories for what they are, and not anything less. Your choice matters to the collective generation. Participation in the collective narrative, especially one in which Asian-Americans are traditionally underrepresented, is how we begin to showcase our narrative and define it for ourselves.

I wonder if I can cross a continent.

About the Author

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Valerie Wu is a student at Presentation High School in San Jose, California. She has previously studied writing at Stanford University's pre-collegiate program and Interlochen Center for the Arts, as well as conducted research for Questioz: The International Journal for High School Research. Her work has been featured and/or recognized by Susan Cain's Quiet Revolution, the Scholastic Art and Writing Awards, the Huffington Post, Teen Ink, and various local publications. Outside of school, you can find her either watching TED videos or correcting someone's grammar. ​

3 Comments
Abbey
7/28/2017 06:26:03 pm

Hi Valerie! As a Chinese American girl, I just wanted to give a huge "thank you" to you for writing this amazing piece. It's eloquent and raw, and your words have an incredible impact on the reader. Thank you for sharing this with the world :)

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1/6/2019 11:19:45 am

The political representation for Asian-American should never be generalized. I don't think it'a quite ideal for you to be known on your political stand and be stereotyped with that. I hope that you will get the chance to express your inner feelings about this matter; that our lives do not revolve on our political beliefs and there are other fields that require our attention more. I just don't like the idea that most of the Americans nowadays are really after politics.

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12/30/2021 09:58:53 pm

Hello, Valerie! As a Chinese American woman, I simply wanted to express my gratitude to you for writing such a wonderful poem. It's raw and expressive, and your words have a huge impact on the reader. Thank you for taking the time to share this with the rest of the world.

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